baby lemnah ~ 19 weeks, 1 day

Derrick, Abbie, Madison, and I went to Fletcher Allen today for our third ultrasound. We were pretty excited and hopeful that we would be able to see a 3d image of the baby. (3d wasn't around when I was pregnant with Abbie and Madison).

This ultrasound would have been the first opportunity to find out whether we were having a boy or girl. As some of you know, I never found out with either of the girls, so when I first found out I was pregnant, I was pretty adamant that I did not want to know this time either. But after talking with Neva about it, I realized that she was right - this was Derrick's first time having a baby and he really should be the one who decided. He decided that he wanted it to be a surprise, too.

As soon as we walked in I was sure to mention that we did not want to know the sex of the baby ...

The first images we saw were the regular ones - still very neat to be able to see our little munchkin. At one point I thought I saw something, but didn't think too much about it. Then it switched over to the 3d and ~ WOW ~ it was amazing! Sure enough, as you can see in the image above, right there in plain sight was what we were certain was a penis.

Truthfully, my heart sank. Obviously my first priority is to have a healthy baby, but I was really hoping for a girl. I went home and cried. Finally, Derrick and I sat down to talk about it. I was very honest and told him that I was worried that because this was his first biological child and it was a boy, that somehow he would treat this baby differently than he treated the girls. (That he would love this baby more than he loved the girls).

I am really glad that I told him how I was feeling. He told me that even though Abbie and Madison may not be his biological children, he loves them as though they are. I already knew how amazing he has been from day one with the girls, so that was all I needed to hear.